Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Blog Block

Not what you think it is. Not that I can't think of something to say, but one of those times when you have a lump in your throat and you can't. I haven't posted about my father-in-law's heart attack yet, but I need to record a few things so I can move forward.

Shortly after Thanksgiving, my father-in-law had a massive heart attack. The surgeon was able to relieve the blockage in his heart, but Dad had been without oxygen for an undetermined amount of time. He is basically in a coma right now, having sustained damage to some parts of his brain.

His family feels it keenly. There has been much prayer and soul searching, and a kind of endurance mourning. He is not dead, but he is so far from us, that it is painful. A state of limbo where sadness mixes with hope and submission. I wish I were more help. We all do.

I find it hard to carry on with every day life so far. We have socially accepted customs where we mourn if someone dies, but what if you just lose someone's activity and interaction and everything else, except their body? We go back and forth between hope and despair. I watch my sweet mother-in-law, as she sits by his side everyday. Time ticks forward. Christmas is coming. Still the changes we pray for are not yet manifest. His children go to work each day and stop in when they can. The grandchildren pray for him and draw pictures for his room. It is a time to stretch our souls.

I am so grateful for this family that I have married into. I am also grateful for kind words and prayers from extended family and friends. We feel loved as you express sorrow for us, and let us know of your concern and prayers. We love you too. Thank you.


Natalie said...

Oh honey....we are thinking of your family! Our prayers are with you!

Nanette said...

Oh my goodness! I had no idea Jenny, I am so sorry to hear this! All my love and prayers!

Becky said...

poor nate. that has got to be hard. here's to HOPE! This just happened to a family that is close to us. it was so hard, but gave them time... time to accept, time to hope for something better, you know.
well wishes from us.

Karma said...

Oh Jenny, I am so sorry! You will be in my prayers and please tell Nate how sorry I am!

Wendy said...

You know my thoughts and prayers are with your family.